Dear Heaven,
There's so much to be said but not enough words to explain how i feel..
So much has happened and people don't know how to call us anymore..
I know we're through but it confuses me---its not how i feel..
I am left stuck and not knowing where to go..
I'm afraid to make a step coz i know i'm waiting for you to come back..
WHY does it take a minute to say Hello and forever to say goodbye?!
You know what?! I hate myself for being too nice and freindly that sometimes people would fool me around..
I hate myself for trusting easily, for always pleasing people even if it hurts inside..
I hate myself for always wearing a smile even if i feel so lonely, and for not believing in what i can do, for seeing the glass half-empty rather than half-full..
I've shed a 100 tears for you..
I have never been this mushy all my life. I regret what happened for the both of us..
I know, eventhough i search for someone like you, i know i will not find someone close enough..
Though i go around in circles looking for that someone, i always end up with you..
I don't know, im confused, this love im trying to kill is the love i want to stay..
If i could just turn the past and undo what is to be undone, i'll do it..
Those times I hurt you, im hurting too..
Our love is gone but you're still holding my heart..
You moved heaven and earth, you moved me..
I hope this pain would just fade away, it really is killing me inside..
Please bring back the life i used to have,
You stole my heart
But now, im healing, now im surviving a day without you in my thinking..
But in your dreams, you're still there, and there you'll be for quite sometime i think..
I know it's just traces of my memories, its not longing, it's not missing..
Even the sweetest dream about you, i know wont move me again..
Coz i know you are a thing of my past already..
But i know, you are forever will be a part of me,
And everywhere i am, you'll always be here..
I just cant leave everything behind,
Our memories will stay, Till i reach the sky..
(TY to bluemagnetz) |
